Monthly Archives: September 2009

Small steps

The bank of tall trees behind the houses opposite is beginning to change colour, as though dusted lightly with some yellow pigment on the outside edges.  Not very yellow, and not at all red, just a subdued change-over from dark, healthy green to an end of season ochre.  I’ve always liked yellow ochre as a pigment even though, as with most earth colours, it needs to be used pure and fast if it’s not to go muddy under the brush.

The leaves are thinning down and beginning to fall, too, as are those on almost all the deciduous trees around and about.  I find a few dried leaves blown into the entrance, trapped for a while before joining the main force that drifts away along the road to the big houses at the end–the ones that can afford regular gardeners to sweep them up.

Dry leaves are fun, individually or in drifts but they lose much of their charm for me when it’s wet, turning from rustly joy to damp, melancholy foot-flattened ghosts of their former selves.

So, as the weeks go by I begin to see the hills behind the trees.  It’s an annual cycle, and a good one.  That bank of trees is a constant joy to me, home to a colony of grey squirrels that even in the winter come out on sunny days to leap along their highways, branch to branch, tree to tree.  One day the woodsmen will come along, inevitable as toothache and they’ll cut the trees back or, worse, remove them altogether.  That’ll be sad.

Until then I shall continue, winter and summer, to greet them when I open the blinds of a morning and wish them safe sleep at night.  When I venture out in the dark I can hear them whispering quietly hour to hour.  When the storm blows I hear them, whispering no more, roaring their songs to the sky.

Good things, trees.  If you have trees about you all else seems insignificant.

And so, that about wraps it up for September.  One last ‘haiku’ to post and I’ve kept to my intent to write one a day right through the month.  I only missed once, so there are twenty-nine of them rather than thirty.  Twenty-nine small steps on the way to… somewhere.

I don’t think I’ll be doing more for a while.  They are little things, but when they have to be done, the effort can change from joy to burden.  It’s been fun, though.

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in a turn of the path
a twist of dry leaves–
the smell of autumn

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As a note of comfort for the haiku purists, these are not, mostly, true haiku in the classical tradition.  It’s more accurate to think of them as undisciplined ‘tercets’, with a touch of zen/haiku flavouring to help the medicine go down.

Roll on

Tuesday.  There’s a deal of significance in a Tuesday when you’re on a countdown to some future event.  Even though the bulk of the week is still to come, Tuesday seems somehow to break the back of it. I’m always reluctant to wish time away and yet just now I’m counting the days.

Each time we speak, and that’s three times a day, Graham seems to have some new plan or target for things to be done when he returns.  The replacement of carpets with good, clean cork flooring.  The design and construction of a fireplace for the living room.  The conversion of the back bedroom, to include the installation of a large patio door, so that we may have a joint ‘hobby’ room and so that my present study may be joined to the kitchen to make a vast open-plan cooking and daytime living area.  And so on, and on.  I could get quite breathless at the prospect.

And, as if on the side, he plans great things for our back garden, to include the painting of the masonry walls of the house.  I could get more than breathless at that one.

For the past three months I’ve been content with targets of no ambition at all.  Just getting through the day, fending off boredom and depression.  I’ve succeeded reasonably well, even if I have felt I was merely skating on the boundaries.  And soon now, before another Tuesday is upon us, it’ll be over.

Roll on.

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down the valley
pale in the autumn sun
a dog barks, lonely in the morning

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Bring on the clowns

In the event I decided to declare yesterday a holiday and left my cleaning materials in the cupboard.  Now, this morning, I’m feeling bad about it, and worse as the hours go by with not a lot to show for them.

Worse things happen and, while I seem to be low on energy again, I have grit and determination to see me through.  Only a week to go now before the great reunion.

Dolly is showing all the signs of dissatisfaction at my obsession with cleaning things.  There’s something comforting about a light accumulation of dust.  It’s quiet, for one thing, and Dolly really does love quiet.  As do I.  And, after all, if you don’t have a bit of dust around, how can you see where you’ve been with your duster?

The sun is hiding behind a sky filled with heavy grey cloud once more and the presence of a large area of high pressure just a little to the West means that it’s liable to stay that way for a day or so.  All I need now is for us to be hit with a Great Gloom and I really will begin to feel that they’re out to get me.

Hey ho.  Time to get the bucket and mop out and shift some dirt around.  On with the show, as they say.

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two magpies dancing
one seagull soaring–
bring on the clowns

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Bee song

I overslept a little this morning and woke to find a mega-cat snuggled against my back and the house really rather cold.  It wasn’t too easy to throw the covers aside and leap into action.

The heating soon took the chill off the house and then the sun came up in full St Luke’s Little Summer glory and now the place is deliciously warm once more.  Actually, it’s rather early for St Luke, for his saint’s day is in mid-October, but with weather patterns these days you can’t really blame the old guy for getting his calendar out of synch.  And nobody should complain about warm Autumn sunshine.

So, as our morning creaks and groans respond to the warmth, Dolly and I are revelling in it.  It’s good to be alive.

Taking advantage of the sun-given grace of minimum creakiness I’m planning to give the kitchen, cloakroom and bathroom a good scrubby clean today.  That’ll be it then for such in-depth cleaning before Graham comes home.  Just care and maintenance for the next week and then I shall be able to hang up my dusters.

There’s a distinct need for optimism these days, with the Labour government folding its hands and waiting for defeat in the Spring at the next general election.  It looks as if they’re going to gift us with a new Tory government, damn their eyes.  And the British people, bereft of long-term memory, seem to think it’s a good idea.  Well, I don’t.  I suspect it’ll all end in tears once more.

When Labour fought the 1983 election the then leader of the party–Neil Kinnock–told us what to expect if the Tories won:  “I warn you not to be ordinary. I warn you not to be young. I warn you not to fall ill. I warn you not to get old.”

He was right.  He didn’t win the election, but he was right.  And now it looks as if it’s all coming round again.  It’d be funny if it were not so damned predictable.  And circular.  I hate circular even more than I hate predictable.

I hope that I’m wrong.  Otherwise it might be best for us to wait for the Tory-engineered property boom, sell up here and go to live in a more sensible country.  Denmark would be good.

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in the autumn sunshine
late flowers bloom–
loud bee song

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Watch your step

Today is the start of Graham’s last full week at the holiday camp and the day when the trannies descend in a cloud of cheap perfume and camiknickers.

For once I’m glad I’m not there.  I have three memories of the only week I did meet the trannies.  One, standing at the bar between two fully ‘dressed’ blokes before scurrying off with my brandy and american to sit safe in a corner out of the way.  Two, seeing a group having a tea party, all in billowing afternoon frocks and sipping at bone-china cups, little fingers daintily poised.  Three, walking through the long bar, having to step over boozed-up trannies flopped out on the floor.

I’ve nothing against trannies but I have to say that I find their proximity en masse to be disconcerting.  This is not my scene.  Not no way it isn’t, even though I do love Priscilla, Queen of the Desert.

And so Dolly and I enter into our last week of what has been a long, long home alone period.  I’m able to vacuum and dust the whole house now in just over an hour each day.  The rest of the time we snooze companionably together, not making a mess.

It’ll soon be done now.

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in the window
a spider cleans its web
the last grasshopper falls

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